Christmas Eve's Fail!

Christmas Eve!
We decided we would spend Christmas with some Friends of ours on there HUGE Quinta on the outsides of Monterrey. As it was Christmas Eves dinner i desided to wear a short flufffy black drees and high hels, which ended up being a bad decision.
Since we had just eaten turkey a few days befor on a friends christmas dinner we decided a change would be good and got pollo loco isnted. ( A Mexican Fast food Company).
As we got to the house one of my parents friend was going to go get some Tamales ( which for the record I HATE!!!!! ) and he needed someone to go with him, and ofcourse my mom sugested mi! GRRR... She came with him and asked me if i wanted to go, I invented a quick excuse but my mom insisted and next thing i knew i was in the car.
As the car started he turned on his mp3 and procided to plug it on the car i thought he would put calmed christmas music or something like that, since it was Christmas Eve, But ohh i was so wrong. As he prest play I almost have a nervous brake down! The music that was playing was no more than RANCHERO music! The only type of music I CANT STAND! and just to make it even better it was HIM singuing and the music was loud enough to make me deaf! i tried to think about anything that would get mi mind of this music! I even tried faking a phone call for him to turn it of, Which work for a few minutes but then the music was back.
After about half an hour of ear torture he picks up this 2 kids from the street, one about 20 and the other 12, i was like...umm wtf...They end up being the kids of the people that were giving us the tamales. We werent even going to a real store to get them!.
We parked in front of there house and i asked if i could stay in the car but he refuced to let me and opend the door for me as he keeped on doing for the rest of the night!, so I, with a mini drees, in the middle of the cold, whent to some strangers house. As we entered the whole family was there grandparents, fathers, mothers, aunts, kids, etc. All drest sloopy and looking at me like a fish out of watter. After sitting down and hearing them talking for about 20 minutes they asked us if we wanted to eat, i quickly told them i was completly full, which i was but also saying it since i HATED tameles! But, next thing u know they were opening the chair for me to sit on it. I sat in the table as they brought the tamales and put them in front of me, all staring at me to see if i liked them (The truth is...i dont even know how u eat them, they first and only time i tried them i bit it with the corn peel and everything, so i kind of learnt my lesson with that) I took of the peel and decided i had to get it over with so i started eating it...pucking inside, traying not to show too manny face expresions and drinking some groos pure sugar drink, soon enough i was done! and it was finally time for Good byes and for another 5 million kisses and handshakes. As we got back in the car the 20 something year old son was gonna help us to find our way to the main street once he got of the car my dads friend looks at me and he says " Ester you really do Miracles!!!!!" i was like...wtf " what do u mean" Hes like " Well this kid has never taken of that discousting ear piercing, and today after he had seen you i told him you hated when guys had ear piercing and the first thing he did was go to his room and take them of." i was like " WHAT THE FUCK!! you LIED!" and he was like " haha well in mexico earing look really bad and bla bla bla"!! and i was like " well everyboddy has to be free to get there own style and if they like it good for them!. " and then he prest the play button! DEATH came to me and the ranchero music mixed with his voice penetrated my earss as we got to a red light with lots of diferent rails a black car passed in front of us with about 5 guys holding guns, about 4 cars behind us was the police the cars beside ours started alerting the police of the narcos, the cops car lights turned on and all the cars behind us started beeping since there was probably gonna be a shotting and everyboddy started skipping the red lights and almost crashing in a quite moviesh style! soon enough we were far from there, as we got to the gate of the house i opend the car door to move the gate, He stooped me! and said that " Girsl dont opend gates! The man do it" Ughhh i hate, hate, hate, HATE! when people treat me like that, when they opend the car door for you, pull out the chair, and treat you like a handicaped person! I like having the freddom to be crazzy and not having to act like a Princes! But, oh well, back to my story; as we got home everyboddy was waiting for us to start eating and had been eating chipps whille they waited so when we came back everyboddys hunger was done and 3 whole chikens were left uneaten. And the rest of the night completly sucked!! :)

And this was my 2010 Christmas Eve!

Merry Christmas!!! i hope you had a better one!!

New Start!

The emo blog has ended.
From this moment on, the post on this blog shall be of daily acts, a site were ppl can see my life, not sorrow or just "thought's" but my minutes, hours and days, that make my life what it is!
It will still have weird thoughts that come and go because those are always flowing in my mind.

Explosion

The boddy is a peace of ice and the heart is a small heater when ur heart brakes the warmth of the heart flows inside the boddy were it melts some of the ice giving place to those warm tears that roll down you eyes but once all the warmth banishes with the contrast of the ice u became just a big freazing peace of ice! no warmth in ur heart no fellings everything is banished

searching for someboddy

Laying alone in bed
thoughts clowding thy head

Tears wont stop rolling down thy face
but how to get out of this place?

Im suposse to call this home
its like standing on foam

My boddy moves, my spirit follows still a sleep
my smile remainds while my eyes weep

My thoughts, my plans...
all ruind my madmans

How to gain the life i never had
with out being costantly sad?? :(

Tears...

Tears of lonlynes knowing all your friends are fake, there just there when they can get something from your freanship, even if is just attention all they think about is THEM! they dont stoop criticising and putting the blame on others, for gods sake ppl cant u just be humble, i have to remind my self over and over and over all friking day because once u start the chain of blaiming others it never ends and it not only makes the other people fell bad but makes me you fell worse! Cant people acetp others for who they are and stop traying to change everyboddy and traying to combert them into being just the same boring pease of shit everyboddy is! if someboddy is sweet they use them! why? because to be in this world u need to be A COMPLETE BITCH, if u arent ppl will allways take adbantage of u....hate this world!!

Trapped..

Trapped...this time not between walls but in thy mind. Thy soul is trapped in thy mind, stuck in thy rutine, doing the same things day by day, theres no diference in thy days that pass so i try doing something crazzy to make it last, Now i proclame i shall do what ever it takes to make everyday have its own color its on way to diference it from the others, i just wish i had someone just a little closer to my crazynes not so propper and santly like thy ones i have around me, someone who doesnt care what others shall say of them next day, someone who lives life to the fullest, someone who rathers be hatted for who they are than loved for who there not, someone who lives to there own expectetions not others, someone who is got as much as a life that doesnt have to be getting into other ones, someone who welcomes me as who i am and doesnt try to make me into who they want me to be....
someone whos wild and crazzy! who loves runing as fast as the winter wind, and who doesnt go with the flow like ocean but isnted is like the crashing waves that splash around and are the reason people have so much fun! someone thats opend to new ideas, to new activities......and its 11:11 i shall leave this post with thy wish!

white

The power of B/W
white a color that is easyy to dirty, easy to change, looks good even with the darkes backround, makes u look like an artwork, its artistic, it fades with the light ,looks good with any color skin, makes everything look brighther, its transparent with the watter.
Black a color that no matter what will remain black! will allways be itself! no matter how much the other colors try changing it it shall always be it self!